"Hi San, well funny you should mention that word because just before I posted my message "whim" was the one word I looked up in the dictionary to see if it was really appropriate or not, and the New Oxford dictionary said "sudden desire or change of mind, especially one that is unusual or unexplained" and I thought that's not quite the right word, but it will do!"  -godonlyknows

Hi godonlyknows,

Well, let's take a look if it's OK with you at what might be a better more accurate choice of words to describe why you decided to check F8 out.  I could proceed and suggest other words that I think might better depict your presence here from my own perspective, but I would rather defer to you and ask you to take a minute or two and get back to me with what you would consider 'quite the right word'.  I am not meaning to get literal, it's just that in this case the most accurate choice of words you use may help us to better understand each other and what we are really saying.

So you have these little hairs in your ear that vibrate with sounds and language and send vibrational signals to the brain which are translated and interpreted into communication that we use as raw data to respond.  That plus the overall 'vibe' - the words and the vibe - comprise the communication.  Sometimes they coincide and sometimes they don't.  The words can mislead either intentionally or unintentionally, but the vibes never lie.  I feel that you are a friendly spirit and you have some issues deeper than you have admitted to me and possibly to yourself about your affiliation with Prem Rawat.  I think that is totally normal and in accord with common sense and human decency, given all the archives that you are invited to check out.  And perhaps you are either consciously or subconsiously seeking answers to your inner questions, and you came here.  Consider this as a possibility, I am not trying to persuade you into this posture, I just feel that is where you very well may be.  It is a familiar place that I was in when I came around here and that is why I recognize it.  No need for public admissions if that is not your thing.  Just know that whatever it is that brought you here, there is at least one person here who can relate from direct personal experience where you are coming from. 

Please relax and keep communicating.