I thought I would follow Cynthia's exhaustive rendition of Godonlyknows  with

" You Still Believe In Me " ( by Brian Wilson/ Tony Asher - from the Album "Pet Sounds" )

   ( intro: tinkling bells etc. )

I know perfectly well I'm not where I should be,

I've been very aware you've been patient with me,

Every time we break up you bring back your love to me

And after all I've done to you , how can it be

You still believe in me ?

 

I try hard to be more what you want me to be

I can't help how I act when you're not here with me,

I try hard to be strong but sometimes I fail myself

And after all I promised you so faithfully

You still believe in me.

I wanna cry ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah.

cry ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah .

ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ......

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So there it is ...all the guilt, the effort that comes to nothing, the feelings of unworthiness, the blaming of myself , the depression and the " juju " belief that Prem Rawat somehow knew and gave a toss.