When in the morning I went to tell him my decision, he said to me scathingly 'My mahatmas must obey me instantly'!! And that was the end of that!

You're a lucky fucker Mike, actually I think all the people who've ever posted on these boards, including myself, are too, regardless of individual horror stories, greater or lesser degrees of angst whilst being involved, & all the rest.

We are the survivors.

 The obligation to surrender ones life was all too much for a great number of people, & where are they now? We'll never know, but it doesn't take too much imagination to work out that loads have been screwed up by all this,& are probably still walking around with the idea in the back of their minds that they've blown it with God,Infinity,Life, by having received the knowledge of all knowledges & then couldn't live up to it.

Imagine what you would've become if you'd said 'yes', straight off the bat.

Last I heard of Saphlanand, you wouldn't want to know the details, but they ain't pretty. Probably premies would say he flew too close to the sun & got burnt, if they remember who he was in the 1st place, or even give a shit, which is doubtful.

As ever I await the testimony of those who kept a clear head back then, & set up this thing as a quasi legal entity,but I'm not optimistic that they'll come forward.