Welcome, and I wish you well in dealing with what is almost certain to be a difficult time emotionally. Just trust me and others here that it will pass, and you will feel a lot freeer.

My first post was in response to a discussion about the techniques, and until then I had kept my vow of never revealing them to anyone for 25 years. Because I had been reading the forum for several weeks, and had read a lot of the archives, I felt I knew everyone but of course to them I was a stranger. So well done for introducing yourself, and whatever you want to say, do so at your own pace. If you want to discuss anything privately with anyone here, there is the private message facility, or you are welcome to write to me by email.