Lexy,I regret joining the cult. I think it inhibited my development as an adult. But the reason I joined was because there were others who convinced me it was the way to truth and happiness. After I joined, others were convinced by the existing members, members that included you and I. Sure, our motivation was good, but we were careless by not researching what we were joining carefully enough, and as a result of our carelessness, others were ensnared. Directly I can count my brother and an ex-premie from Brighton (although he kindly says I was a minor influence). Indirectly I have no way of knowing who I influenced, but collectively, we are responsible for everyone who joined after we did. We were part of the attraction, just as those who went before me attracted me.
Mike Finch says on his website that the reason he writes about Rawat there is because of the responsibility he feels in supporting the cult. We all share that responsibility.
John.