"MY BELOVED" oohh, ick. "I want tell the world that you're here but I feel to keep it to myself."
Maybe you'd be way too embarrassed to actually say something like this out loud to people? Could that be the reason? If your co-workers knew you wrote stuff like this to a "guru", everybody would be fine with that? No one would think, "What the hell is this guy on?"
You may not know why you don't tell everybody, Milky, but I do. You like wrapping yourself up in this safe, yummy, blissful cocoon, but you know it's a little creepy to most folks.
