.......and he's courageous enough to use his real name here ( if it's the Bulent I remember and not another one or an imposter !   )  . I respect that.

When I first posted here I found it hard to understand the more extreme ridicule as it seemed so blasphemous....I was also sensitive to criticism as I was only just untying the apron strings of dependency.

Now I'm going through a phase of sadness/anger . Not fury or anything like that....just a realisation of the limits I gave my never to be repeated life, once you have lost time like that you can never get it back....I know I hurt people because of my " premie " mindset...and I limited my own capacity and enjoyment .So when someone like "reporter" ambled by, trying to resell me such soiled goods it irritated me.

See link below.