If there is anyway to open a mind, I have to find it

I had a deep relationship with a girl before I received Knowledge. I chose to go for K big time. My girlfriend loved me and followed me into the cult and also received Knowledge several months later. Within a few weeks she walked. She then started a relationship with someone else ( a non-premie). It hurt. She was smart.

That was my wake up call.  I could not feel really good inside again, no matter how much I meditated. I could not deny this loss. That was number one drip. After that it still took years for me to fully exit.

Interestingly I actually joined another cult as part of an exit strategy. My story is too complex and personal to relate further but I never got really burned again and I quickly moved on from my addiction to cults. I was younger then.

I suspect your husband, like me back then, will not know what he really has with you... until you take it away. Right now he has the best of both worlds... but it is not working for your benefit is it ?

I sympathise with your situation and I wish you well.

Dave