"then you went and found yourself yet another Guru" oi, little Miss guilt-maker!
Attached below is what that other guru said about the vow (and not without self-interest, I admit). But never forget that we gave our vow to Rawat at a time when he was claiming to be God-in-a-bod. He now, (ha ha!) denies he ever claimed that.
Consequently, the vow we made was made to someone who now won't admit he ever got us to make it. I think the deal's off, don't you?
Let's face it - the whole trip was designed to create dependency from the moment the hook was baited with the "experience" of Special K.
Now, take a clove of garlic or two, and read the following: