In recent weeks people from the past (1970's ) have been re emerging in my life.That was the time I "got knowledge". It has set me thinking about what was going on in me at that time. "D"'s intelligent enquiry and sensitive relationship with his parents has also inspired some reflection on that critical turn in my biography; when I made my lunge for immortality and signed up for Rawatism.

After having exed in 2000, I realised a year later that it was an unavoidble fact that I was going to have to take a long journey right back to the moment I signed up. There was going to be no other way for it. Well now in mid 2005 I think I am close.

The young man who bought into Rawat was a somewhat defeated and manipulated soul who craved a means of claiming exceptional status in the eyes of the rest of the world without actually having to admit to his present (then) pains and confusions.

The cult of Rawat was the perfect fit. A shortcut, an ace so high you need never play another ever.I see traces of this in the present clingers on.

The way eras in life are lived through is amazing. Do you remember that Hot Chocolate song "It started with a kiss"? Well this whole spiritual diversion started with one unendurable need to do a bit of self evaluation! A few well chosen words from a wise soule at the point of entry and I would be a different man today.

Love,

Bryn

S