No worries, as they say in Oz. Trying to see clearly your way in and out of Maharaji's guruship, and his message, is both an emotional and a tough process for anyone who has invested time and energy into it.

And you surely qualify, with you parents being long-time premies.

I applaud your courage in wanting to make your own mind up about Maharaji. You're bound to tread on a few toes in so doing.

Thanks for your kind words about my site - I am glad you found it helpful.

Best wishes for the future