Thank you for this thoughtful response. This particularly:

"Yes, I agree that Rawat is a good manipulator. He is fire and brimstone God, so that when he is nice to someone, maybe even acts a little humble, or childlike, they feel so spectacularly special and privileged and they see it as the most incredible love and "gift." Rawat knows how to manipulate that and the poor premie does not recognize it as manipulation, or how much of their power they have given over to him. Then, Rawat also knows how to set one premie against another, which he often does as well, always keeping the premies around him aware that he could dump them and there would be another cult member very glad to take their place. It's very sick."

Brilliant manipulation. He figures out how to "own" you through very subtle means.

Your other comments re fairplay and the impulse to please and "fade away" as you say, have fueled some good thinking for me.