It's a very strange feeling, I feel like I ought to be sensing something profound but I'm not.

At the same time it's disconnecting. Typing that sentence above I got the feeling that even the expectation of profundity was brought about by the cult-think.

That of course brings about a sense of consciously making myself aware of the passing of time on a moment-by-moment basis, especially with respect to what I just wrote. I feel a need to free the positive experiences that brings me from the Rawat machine but I don't know how.

And now I'm worried that I'm just babbling nonsense. Self-awareness bites.