My sincere condolences.  I believe that some advanced souls come to this earth-plane in the guise of , say, a schizophrenic, or a street bum, or something, for the purpose of awakening love and compassion in the hearts of those around them.  They are, in fact, a blessing in our lives, as I'm sure your son Stepan was!

I think of Don McLean's song about Vincent Van Gogh: "the world was never made for one as beautiful as you"...

Love and good wishes as you and your husband walk this part of your journey.  Thanks for sharing!

~Shelagh