and pehaps he had "a metaphorical gun" on his head, and perhaps we need to feel sorry for him, and perhaps as always I get angry, and perhaps I have my reasons and perhaps, who gives a dam if I do or not and what the whole thing means to me because NOBODY here has been in my SHOES, struggling in many ways to the point of even being disregarded, disrespected and misinterpreted by your own ONLY kid/son and to be called by him A MEMBER OF A HATE GROUP....and all that came after he called me taht, how it affected him being a child growing in the cult, seeing the guru and all the false beliefs we all got in our heads.  Yes, we have to learn to cope and go on... is not always possible.

Nobody can relate well about other's pain except when them themselves have been in a similar situation.  None of you know what is like to be me and i don't care really.  I do not need your pitty.  i don't. I am me and my circumstances and I do not have to come here to disclose certain private parts of my life for you to avoid seeing me just as a bitter "Henna"...I am not a bitter person in  real life.  I don't have time to explain this and that in the forum.. I see I am not a good participant because I dislike typing and cannot follow up the posts and the answers.   

I hardly post here.  I said all I had to say about what happened to me and how it affected my young son, my mental health and how it deveoped, and my family troubles, etc.  I gave my opinions about rawat and also used the forums to heal, to vent my anger.  That is over and processed.   I presented - come after me Guru, I BEG YOU!- ALL KIND OF DOCUMENTS THAT WILL REMAIN ONLINE HOPEFULY FOREVER. I gave all I had to be published online and I will be stupid to name each item, but I did.  If anything, I know it pissed him off, as he pissed us off when we found out how fake and bad he really is and he used us as money making machines.

Yes, you are right, I should have thought how beaten probably Mc Greggor ended, BUT I DON'T KNOW THAT because as Jim pointed, john never came back to talk about it, all I know that what is said there affected me and touched the old wound of having being used by a greedy con man, adn he continues to use me/us for his own gain.

I WOULD NEVER SIGNED THE AFFIDAVIT... i dont think I would have done it...

Henna, the biggest unlit match who still thinks McGreggor is just fine, somewhere... 

Hi Toby and Nik and all...