Actually if Rajeswar was the judge or ex-judge (Rajeshwaranand) he completely freaked me out during a weekend meditation retreat when he gave satsang about how Bal Bhagwan Ji was God as compared to guru who was greater than God or maybe not. Later we discovered this was the weekend when the family break up was occurring so maybe he was getting us softened up to follow the new Perfect Master, Satpal Ji. I assumed I was the only person who found this very hard to cope with but in later years when chatting with other premies I found out that some of them were also freaked out ut they thought they were the only ones who were freaked out.

I would never have joined it if wasn't for Padarthanad who was providing a very god imitation of a 'mahatma'.