I always assumed by the time you reach the day you are to receive K, you are so brainwashed and ready to burst with anticipation, its going to be great no matter what it really is... and then when you get home and start to realize its not that special, M reels you back in with "service" and other crap to make you think there is something yet to reach or experience that in all honesty you can't really atain...

but if receiving K was the whole point you started with this guy and then you stick around after and not even practice, what the hell is the point? It can't be his amazing videos that don't say anything, or that rocking sugar coated fawning music at the events, what the hell keeps you there?

MC