yeah, remember you lost your hat in the trip?  It is me.

No, no personal fights, of course not. What make you think that?  I'm just asking you a question JM.

I talked with you often right after I exited the cult. I remember expressing my anger but also my pain.  Pain for realizing the midget occupied so many decades of my life and I had a long road ahead .  I cried often, working in mending my heart - I really gave mine to him, as required, to be a good devotee-  and you say something like is not a big deal, have fun...

I remember that at first I experienced a high from realizing I was free but then, looking at what I had left, little tools to live in the real world, was a total downer.

So, do you still think like that?  You left 1-2 years before me. 

It is a sincere question, not wanting to start a BAD argument but wondering how is that you feel today, regarding having given your all, your heart.  Can you say you have recovered?  I hope so.

I just want to hear it from you. 

h/s