Seriously, I have a theory, which is probably completely false but what the hell. My theory is that when a premie takes a step toward real integrity to the point where he puts that before Prem Rawat, he already has half a foot out of the door. I've seen that in myself, with you and in so many other stories from ex premies that I have read here. So really the road to exiting isn't all that hard is it, if what I am saying is true? Simply be true and uncompromising to your own sense of integrity and the only path that you can follow is the one out the door.