The biggest lie

is:

"What you are looking for is within inside of you."

Rawat and his premies adhere to the belief that there is something to experience inside of us that will fulfill us independent of all exterior considerations.

This is not true, not should it be true.  The effort to make it true is harmful to a person's wholeness and well-being. 

This is a subtle point, and I should try to explain.

In the last Expressions event, reported about 20 threads below, a premie told Rawat that her husband and her daughter were giving her such problems that she was suicidal.  Rawat told her that finding the "joy within" was her solution.  Rawat should not be allowed to go around spreading this kind of stupid, simplistic, worthless, unworkable advice.  For Heaven's sake, if that poor premie hadn't found the "joy inside" by now, when will she???????  What she needs is some proper advice, either from a professional, or a friend, or from her own self.  Obviously, she needs to work on her relationships with her loved-ones, or, if these relationships are irrevocably broken, then she should move on.  She should also find her own inner strength and love by whatever means she can.  Obviously, practicing Knowledge hasn't worked for her yet!!!

My own personal greatest disappointment was that I gave credence to Rawat's philosophical stance against friendship.  He always counseled against depending on any and all friends, instead relying on the "friend within."  This philosophy is not a very good way to have friends in this world, and friends are important.  This is the same issue as the aphorism quoted above.  Love is what we are seeking and it is not a matter of meditating ourselves into it, or finding it with a guru/master relationship.

I now reject Rawatism in every way, especially about finding my fulfillment within myself through the method of meditating and loving him.   But, after rejecting Rawatism, that leaves the question of how I go about searching for fulfillment.  Well, I don't.  It's pretty simple.  I accept myself as I am, and life as it is, even if it is less than the perfect connection to the ultimate of SatChitAnand.  I remain ignorant and less than 100% fulfilled.  A mature human being lives with the limitations of human life.  However, happiness and peace are possible.  I know my happiness depends most on my own inner strength and wisdom and my own capacity to love and enjoy and work and play and create.  But it also depends on so many other things, such as the state of the world and the lives of all my friends.  What method do I use to obtain the happiness I need?  I simply live and learn.  There is no other method I use.

The difference between my philosophy of life and Rawatism sometimes seems to be a subtle difference, but really it's quite gigantic.