Thanks for filling in on that story.  I like the snake and fire ants analogy.

I try to avoid the specifics about what I lost to Rawat, because it makes me feel like an idealistic fool (which I was), and it just makes me feel more incensed that Rawat is such a revisionist liar.

I have to say, though.  I have a very nice life, and I enjoy life immensely.  I have people who love me and whom I love.  And this time, as opposed to when I was a premie, I do not in any way discount that love, consider it secondary or "in the way," as Rawat often told us it was.