And I became totally confused because I was at WAR with my mind.  And that was Maharaji's doing.

No one spoke out more against the 'mind' than Maharaji - no one!

I believe that Maharaji hated that we might be able to wake up and think for ourselves and maybe walk away.

But walking away was walking away from God and what could that possibly mean?  To me it meant going to hell.

I was completely brainwashed and in complete paralysis and fear.  My life had become a living hell because I did want out.  Yet, there was no Internet, there was no support group.