Hi Cynthia,

Lying for Captain Rawat is just part of being a premie. Lot's of premies stole for him too. Most of the stage for Guru Puja 1973 at Alexander Palace was stolen from London building sites in the middle of the night.

You said yourself that you didn't think twice about lying when you were at DECA.  In a perverse way, lying and stealing can become "service to the Lord" if you're a premie. This is part of the damage being in a cult does to us. It is amplified when, like at DECA, those around us are part of the lie. In that situation any premie disagreeing would probably be given a talking to. In the case of objecting to theft, for example, you would be told that the whole universe belongs to Rawat anyway...so what?

I also understand your comments about a premies' only friend being Rawat- and maybe the only reason Glen is still friendly is because he thinks he is a "channel for Rawat's love" or something, and by keeping in touch he somehow keeps the line open, and maybe I'll see the folly of my ways. I doubt it, but it's possible.

But from my own perspective, I don't really care. I enjoy his company, as I always have, and there is no place in our relationship for me to attack him because of his religious beliefs. This doesn't mean that I won't discuss these things with him if the occasion arises, ie if the subject comes up. But I'm in no hurry to instigate such conversations. I know if you want to talk about something with someone, the moment appears.

For example, I'd love to grill him about what was really going on with Jagdeo in the 80s and 90s, and what Rawat knew about it. But you can understand why he would be extremely reluctant to have such a conversation with me- I might publish everything he said on EPO, which would damage Rawats mission. If I rushed the gate, and confronted him about it, I don't think he'd lie to me, rather simply say something like, "Anth, you can understand why I don't want to talk about this with you right?"

But I'm an optimist- I can see Glen and I sitting in our wheelchairs on Brighton seafront in 2030 finally getting the full story,

take care, sweet dreams and awakenings,

Anth the truth will rise.