No matter what you currently think of Maharaji. No matter how you currently feel about the relationship you had with him, or the value of the time spent with him and practicing Knowledge… he gave you something that you still benefit from.

He gave me lots of things. Yes, some were positive and were of benefit. Some were of benefit, even though he did not mean them in that sense - for instance, I now have a very robust and well-tuned bullshit meter, that gives me clear signals whenever I am near gurus, or spiritual pretension of any kind - and I have found that to be of great benefit. And lots of things he gave were of no benefit whatsoever. But the negative and worthless I learned from him far outweigh the positive. And I think I could have learnt the positive from Maharaji in a fraction of the 30 years I spent with him, and saved myself all the grief.

He took the time to show you and teach you about something that was once important to you.

The something that was once important to me, was important to me before I ever heard of Maharaji, stayed important to me throughout my 30 years as a premie, and is still important to me. And what he showed and taught me about that was nothing compared to what I have learnt in the 4 years since leaving him. In fact, I would say he covered it up and obfuscated it, rather than showed or taught me anything significant about it.

He gave you something that satisfied a thirst you once had.

No he did not. In fact, he increased the thirst with his tanatalizing promise of how he could quench it, but which went nowhere.

He helped you to understand something about life and about yourself that, had you not had it, you would arguably be much worse off today, in ways you will no doubt never know.

I would argue that I would be much better off. In fact, I think I would be much better of in ways I will no doubt never know.

Of course you can’t see that.

Correct.

You let the doubts of a few hijack your perception of the value in his teaching.

This may be of some surprise to you, but actually I came to my conclusions about the value of his teachings all on my own. Of course I listened and read what others said, but my conclusions are my own. No-one has hijacked my perception; the tragedy is that I let Maharaji hijack it for so long.

You benefited and still do nonetheless.

Well, how refreshing (or should that be scary?) that you have a direct insight into my private life.

Perhaps one day -- dare I say, God willing -- you will once again give credit where it is due.

No need to hope for the future, or pray to God - right now I am giving credit where it is due, and debit too.