Bear,

              If your head hurts, a good start toward easing the discomfort is to stop banging it against the wall.

What Rawat sells is a fantasy, and in the end the emptiness of that fantasy becomes evident to even the most committed adherent - they either live with the emptiness, give up the fantasy and seek to live a life that has some authenticity - or I guess a third option is to adopt a replacement fantasy/guru/belief system/love affair.

Every human can look back and regret - beyond being a reminder about what not to do, 'regretting' is faily useless. Check your options, see what you can do different in the time you've got left, Rawat's small time stuff compared with what you can still achieve.

Nik