Hi elo,

What do you mean by this?

 i left the cult in july 1999,    it appears someone has a grudge against me,  im trying to figure out if it is an ex or the cult up to its dissinformation tricks .

A grudge, someone who posted to you here?  The sentence is not very clear to me.

i left  the cult due largely to the psychic or spiritual experiences i once thought were good but then became negative.  i didnt like the nastyness of many premies,and the arogance, which was all so getting stronger in me.   it felt like iwas on a bad psychic Lsd trip.  because it was so negative i was able to drop the cult and the guru like a hot coal .

Good for you!!!  For how long were you a premie?  I left for similar reasons.  All so controlled, and NEGATIVE.

whenever i had a image of m appear in my mind ,or feel its vibe, i would think of him as a pig ,and i only ever referred to m   as a pig.   i was able to slowly desensitze my self by doing this. 

Whatever works and yes, he can be called a few names....

but I don't think that what follows is not accurate, or why his photos are shown around here.  This forum is a good medium to inform the public about the real Rawat.

many exs still seem to enjoy gazeing at his pictures, and endlessly reading his old ratsangs,  there is such a psycological term in cult exiting known as floating.some exs should look it up! 

I don't enjoy looking at his photos, I just see a greedy "pig".  Put it this way:  Participating in this forum is like a good "service" to inform the public, and yes, a thick stomach is necesary.  I can get upset at times reading what he used to tell us, but it helps me clean my subconscient mind also, it helps me understand how he conned me for decades.

 i am feeling a bit angry ,  i am being followed and watched.    the local premies seem to like takeing my picture, and makeing shure they know what car im driving,   wether i post here or not  dosent matter ,    i know i aint in  rawrats insidious cult

If they harrass you make a police report, or contact higher authorities, if possible.  Poor brainwashed people.  Stay away from them.

Stick around.  Posting helps with the anger.  Of course we are angry: He stole our youths, money, and so much more!

My love to you.