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hi henna, i left the cult in july 1999, it appears someone has a grudge against me, im trying to figure out if it is an ex or the cult up to its dissinformation tricks . i left the cult due largely to the psychic or spiritual experiences i once thought were good but then became negative. i didnt like the nastyness of many premies,and the arogance, which was all so getting stronger in me. it felt like iwas on a bad psychic Lsd trip. because it was so negative i was able to drop the cult and the guru like a hot coal .whenever i had a image of m appear in my mind ,or feel its vibe, i would think of him as a pig ,and i only ever referred to m as a pig. i was able to slowly desensitze my self by doing this. many exs still seem to enjoy gazeing at his pictures, and endlessly reading his old ratsangs, there is such a psycological term in cult exiting known as floating.some exs should look it up! and associating with premies after you have left can trigger of all those old well known cult feelings. i am feeling a bit angry , i am being followed and watched. the local premies seem to like takeing my picture, and makeing shure they know what car im driving, wether i post here or not dosent matter , i know i aint in rawrats insidious cult
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