Lexy,

Now you're blowing this conversation well out of proporation. 

Please stop trying to make me out as such a terrible person Cynthia , because I don't deserve it. I could pick on anybody's posts here if I really wanted to , and learn something about their vulnerabilities and then constantly undermine them...but what purpose would it serve ?...except perhaps to drive them away.

I'm not doing that and I don't think that. When did I ever say you're a terrible person?? Please don't put words in my mouth or thoughts into my head, Lexy.  To be fair, you don't know what I think or feel anymore than I know what you think and feel.  I admitted that I misread your post to Anth in this thread.  What more do you want from me?  Please put into perspective that this is just a online discussion forum. 

I told you that I think that you're overly sarcastic and then I explained why.  I'm just one person, and that's the extent of it. One person's opinion. What I think, by all means does not make you a "bad or terrible person."  That's impossible.  I don't know who taught you to think that way, but, I suspect..maybe Maharaji??  That might be something for you to explore on this forum if you're interested, or not.  I'm also absolutely not trying to "drive you away."  That's couldn't be further from the truth Lexy. You're not being fair at all to me when you say that and now you're implying that you've somehow become my victim.  That's definitely out of proportion.  This a discussion forum Lexy, nothing more.   

Words are the only things people have to go on around here.  If it's my problem that I don't read your posts correctly, well I want to clear that up, but if you don't want to clear that up with me, that's fine too.  It's not necessary for us to interact on this forum, and in fact, on past forums, many people who didn't get along for whatever reasons, managed to both post on the same forum without problems.

I did look at it quickly ( realising that if one tries hard enough one can always find something on the Internet to apparently justify one's point of view ). I realised that , on the whole , I have spoken up openly about any grievances , and when I have dared do this the response has been that the whole thread was promptly deleted or I got a tongue lashing from you and occasionally criticism from some predictable " others" ( oh...and sometimes "men" leapt to my defence     ).....It seems to me that I'm in a " damned if you do/ damned if you don't " situation

I'm not really sure about your statement "damned if you do/damned if you don't" because you haven't been posting on this forum very long and lately you haven't been posting hardly at all.  Lexy, you can't deny that a few weeks ago I took a lot of time to PM with you to explain how this forum works, and what's reasonable for someone relatively new like you, to expect from posting on an internet forum, such as this, as a recent ex.  I also took a lot of time to explain that I think it's important for a recent ex-premie, such as yourself, to try to learn how to express clearly what your needs are.  Why?  So that you can get your needs met.  I didn't do that to hurt you, Lexy.  I did it to help you.  When I wrote all of those things to you I had all of your best interests in heart and mind.  

I took a lot of time for me to do all that and now you're talking as if I'm performing a full frontal attack on you, based on one short, and albeit, harsh post to you here and a post below.  One comment about my perception of you doesn't constitute me wanting you to never post on this forum, and it doesn't mean anything but the words I wrote, either.  What I find ironic is that below you wrote about wanting no censorship on this forum, and that you don't want this to be a "showcase forum," but when I take your cue on that and say what I think and feel, you suddenly want me to shut up, because somehow I'm attacking you and driving you out.

Now that really isn't fair. 

Cynthia