When you've spent 12yrs of your youth belonging to a group which tends to look with amused contempt on the rest of humanity; which has a leader you never liked right from the get go, but still thought was mysteriously 'Divine'; whose only advice boils down to 'don't think about it', then you don't really know what you do believe. All you know is that when you do the light technique then you see light, & you were told that this was the light of God, & you believed that to be true for whatever reasons.

So the only way to deal with the stresses & strains of all that is either to walk away from it, or, which is actually much easier to do, put it into a little box marked 'do not disturb' & forget about it more or less completely whilst still enjoying the upside, which basically boils down to being a spiritual tourist if you can afford it....

It amazed me when I started reading EPO just how much of this I'd forgotten, not to mention the huge blanks I'd never known anything of, but had sometimes wondered about. I guess it's impossible for me to know if I would have 'left' without EPO: certainly the urge to attend 'events' was lessening, but I still felt the need to do the meditation several times a week. I now realise that was solely because of my unexamined belief that it was a conduit to infinity/true self/love, & that objectively it is useless & possibly harmful. The debates on this subject a few years ago were a big help.

The internet started becoming available to the mass market in England 6 or 7 yrs ago & earlier in the US, so I'm certain many thousands of people have done what you & I did on 1st getting a connection, which is type Maharaji into a search engine.

Whether he's lost money as a result, although he most certainly has, is irrelevant. What's much more important is that an unknown number of people now don't have the Bollixshwar sitting like an incubus in a backroom of their mind saying.....'what if you'd only surrendered totally'.