That's a joke, a play on words from My Fair Lady...Eliza Dolittle....oh well.....

"San (and this is said without ego but with sincerity) I do acknowledge my own character and virtues, whichever they mean most dearly to me.  And I do give myself credit for feeling peace and for my own efforts in achieving balance, compassion, understanding, etc.  But, in my own personal experience, Maharaji not only inspires me to go for more of what I'm choosing to feel and experience, but he always has something insightful for me to hear, always  "  -Elisa

Elisa:

When I was a practicing premie of Prem Pal Singh Rawat, I was always inpsired by things he said and did and things I read about him saying and doing.  Thing is, if someone believes in a rock, they will swear that rock moves and breathes and even talks to them in the middle of the night when they are focussing on it intently.  Whatever someone invests their faith in, that energy will return to them in the way they can recognize it. 

With all the hassles and inequities that accompanied being with Prem Rawat and my conscientious hesitation repping him to friends and strangers knowing what I knew had happened to others who got caught in the cogs of his apparatus, I chose to commune for the rest of my life with God without an intermediary rather than with one.  I firmly believe- I know - that I can do this without losing any contact or fidelity in my connection with the Infinite.

How do you deal with the fact that a number of pretty blondes were propositioned for him, a number of premies kids were messed with, and many other things occurred that you would not want to be a party to?  Yet, when you bring someone to him, you take the chance based on a proven track record, that you might be leading someone not to God or realization or inner peace, but to a very unpleasant experience that could be with them the rest of their lives, not by their doing at all but by the doings or undoings of a flawed human being like me and you who has set himself up as a cut above us all and worthy of worship.  How do you deal with that? 

I think you are smart enough to realize that the archives don't have lies in them, that real documented bad stuff happened to premies and their families who thought they were dedicating their lives to the Lord only to have a rude awakening later on after they had burned all their other bridges, as in the sudden and unexpected closing of the ashrams.