I'm doing fine.  The rains have finally subsided and the sun is shining.  There must be a God, or maybe it's the grace, or maybe knowledge works after all, who knows?

I agree completely about how premies spoke.  I think it came from the fear of "getting in the way of the grace of satsang," which was supposed to be the grace of Rawat coming through.  I always had a fear of getting too much of myself, my ego, or MY MIND, in there, and I felt more secure if I parrotted the jargon of Rawat or the initiators and said it the way they did.  That was safe.

I think most premies are also terrified of saying the wrong thing in front of other premies, especially if it could get back to Rawat.  I mean, if the guy can call his followers "assholes" and the like in those training sessions, God knows what he could do to somebody who screwed up and demonstrated confusion, or MIND.  I think that's also one of the reasons that Premies, unlike many ex-premies are anonymous.  They are afraid of saying something wrong and it getting back to the cult.  Although, of course, Rawat is "all knowing," so how do they really hide anything?  Hmmm.

Everytime I watch "The Lord of the Universe," I get reminded about how zombie-like we were, and how everybody spoke the same.  Creepy.