I also agree with you that reading this forum was a form of therapy for me (and didn't cost a dime and no doctor prescribing anti-depressants).  It helped changed my life in a way and get rid of all that (unnecessary) guilt I was experiencing but not being a "good premie".  And when I do tell people of my experience being involved in a cult, I still consider that therapy by talking about it and dealing with it.  After all, 30 years is a lifetime, but I was lucky that I was able to come to terms with it within a short time.  

All I can say is life is good and I appreciate every moment.  And even though my past experience with Ratwhat could be a major embarrassment, I just don't let it affect me like that anymore.  It is such a liberating feeling.  

I recently received the Sky Radio interview (CD) and played it and Ratwhat sounded absolutely ridiculous.  His metaphors don't make any sense and he really has nothing to say.  After hearing it,  I went to get some take out sushi and I through the CD right in the trash.