my final close out with the cult was a slow drip of dissonance, which then was blessedly boosted with the recognition of reason and oxygen which I found (then on) EPO - hearing reason, and articulate voices unwinding the cords that bound us... Thank you (y'all) 

Premies were for me much of the glue to the cult attraction - And now the same attraction applies with the resonance of all you truth seeking people.

much obliged.