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Re: Re: Love -- lakeshore | Top of thread | Post Reply | Forum |
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"Everything about 'being' a premie is abject and fake --- and robs precious time from living a real and sincere life." Yes, that line got to me too, in every word it's so true, painfully so. I was with you, reading your post on writing LOVE over your notes. I think it was the same for a lot of us. That's the golden thread that drew us together as premies. Disappointingly there was a worm in the apple. The thing I wanted my premie friends to understand when I exited was that it wasn't just that Rawat wasn't the 'maharaji' person we had believed him to be, it was considerably worse than that, he is not a nice man. Being a premie ended up making me feel abject and having this confusing sense of fakeness, but you are believing a lie that puts a fakery into the centre of things - once I woke up to that I got to be myself again. Only to realise he wasn't the only faker in my life. I live in an area that drew lots of hippies so it is nice to find ones at bridge that didn't get caught up in a cult and hear their stories. shocking and painful to recognise how much in simple experience of life I got robbed of just by believing a liar or two, it's like you get blinders on. I am grateful to be my old hippy self now - I see a lot of value in that. |
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