Thanks for your story. I also love and respect Jesus. I pray each day, for myself and others.

 I understand that many people who have seen the light regarding mr rawat are reluctant to listen to any teachings ever again though, and it is easy to see why.

It is a personal thing and something that didn't happen for me when I originally exited but after I had been to a priest to ask advice because I felt spiritually attacked at the time. You will know what I mean if it's ever happened to you. If not you'll have to take my word for it. 

I was also really afraid of being duped in any and every area of life, since I felt I couldn't trust my own judgement, having had the wool pulled over my eyes and been involved for so long with M.

So I was given some prayers, which I have used ever since. I certainly feel protected from many subtle influences and am really grounded and in touch with my intuition a lot more.

 I still have the free will to follow my intuition of course and it is increasingly easier to do so. The habit of second guessing is abating. A habit of dual mindedness that the cult made second nature.

 Slowly I have found I get a lot from the prayers and maybe the best thing is I am no longer afraid. Quite often the exact opposite in fact. 

I'm glad you are out of the deceivers grip.

 I also thought of him as the anti-Christ the morning of my knowledge session, before I went there on my little bicycle. I rode into a severe head wind half way across the city and lost my shawl without even noticing it had blown away. He had warned me that my 'mind' would kick up a fuss. It turns out that was my intuition.

Life is a whole lot better without M anywhere near, as any one on here will be surely confirm.

However I am one here who can say I understand you becoming Christian and am happy for you.

It is impossible to justify ones faith in God to another. Or the fact that I have felt spiritually attacked. Whatever brings you elevation of mind, emotions, body and particularly on a soul level, is obviously going to be that thing you want to find out more about. I don't have a church or a community. If i give money to charity it is to local initiatives that help people in my country. I don't feel that I can talk to anyone much about prayers, I tell people I pray but I don't feel qualified to talk about Christ although i am usually willing to listen. I'm sorry some branches of christianity have defamed Jesus. Cults have formed in his name too. Over the centuries the church has been overtaken by zealous agendas. One must be particularly discerning, as our experiences with the cult have shown us all.

I feel my standards have certainly been raised . I'm glad about that. My standards of behaviour expected from myself and others has also been elevated through some basic christian principles. I saw that I rebelled in my youth from some pretty solid wisdom and tried to reinvent the wheel.

 I do know about myself that I require faith and hope and love and trust in myself, in my life and in God. And that I am grateful I actually feel those things now and not just a bitter sweet yearning which is as close as I got with PR's so called knowledge. 

I sincerely hope each of us find all those important feelings in our lives and in our hearts.

wishing you well

Suzy