Dear Friends,

In all the years of the internet this is my first chat room experience.  As a Realtor, I am reduced to spending lots of time researching on line, but having found prem-rawat-talk.org (the key to freedom) it's becoming a bit of an obsession with me; so for now I'd like to sum up a few things for those who are listening related to recent postings by you. And then ween myself.  But I'd also like to mention that a month ago I ditched two boxes of maha videos and watched with satisfaction and grief as the garbage truck wisked them away from me forever. I had considered giving them to the "community", but decided that that would contribute to people getting into knowledge, which I certainly do not want to support, anymore!  As far as "community" I pass no judgment except that a member of (my current)cmmty was volunteering at the info ctr at amaroo (yes, there was foot kissing) and I lost my credit card and it was in the lost and found with my picture on it! and 2 days later she happened to be behind me on a food line and casually mentioned the fact of it. I can't imagine her not making any effort to find me, after all - I was staying on the land, I was registered. I was so lucky that I hadn't known till then it was missing; I would have been frantic. No love there at all.  No humanity! But love is there with the Gainesville Florida premies; maybe that's why maha hasn't been there for so long. Adds a new twist to John 1:5, "The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not (come over) it."

We all have opinions, and experiences, and what makes the posters here special is their courage, need for support, desire to support others.  And not special would be a desire for revenge, rightful anger, need to be admired, loneliness, curiosity - whatever/not wrong, just not special.

By posting the obvious and the history, new readers can know the truth. Thanks to the relentless ones who make this possible.  Many, many thanks for the lifeline, for the voices in the wilderness. When I started reading the other sites and learned about who the real rawat is, well! the buck literally stopped there. Shame on him and shame on the perpetrators of the lie.  Call me naiive, but who are these people (his family, his fundraisers) who can live with themselves?  I am not embarrassed that I was fooled.  Just angry and sad and I want to help. If it can be helpful I do own some very old memorabilia from the 70's. But if I can sell it on Amazon and make a penny for the thousands I spent, would I be legally harrassed?

And lastly, regarding what I called a softness and vulnerability, and faith in God, that I nurtured since I was 17 and practicing knowledge and supporting the un-cause...  Maha and knowledge and the premies, there was no teaching there.  I walked on a path that was an alternative to a worldly way, I embraced a form of godly devotion.  Just maharaji was the very wrong object of my desire.  But I trust I'll get it right.

In appreciate of you friends, Shereelove