I don't understand your statement about having positive things in your life "(which are not in conflict with my practice of Knowledge)"! If they are positive - how could they ever be in conflict? Is there something about Knowledge that makes it conflict with some positive things in this world? Could it be that being a member of a cult is what causes the conflicts for you?
Like Cynthia, I am not prepared to discuss all of the positive things in my life - there are too many to mention. But I can tell you that following Rawat was one of the most negative things I have ever done with my life - and if I had it to do over again - knowing what I do now - I would not repeat that mistake.
Knowledge is crap - it is an illusion created by a master manipulator. ANY good or positive experience that you have doing those techniques is simply the effect of spending time alone and relaxed. The techniques are bogus, the master is a con artist.
But, it's great that you can feel so positive about it. Now you don't have to do anything *really* meaningful with your life - you have a perfect excuse for not taking responsibility for anything! No wonder you feel positive!
