Zak, it isn't easy facing the harsh reality of Rawat's con -- but it sounds like you are starting to break free. "Nice Catholics" have problems too so don't look back. Regret isn't really productive. I know that if I had been given all the facts way back when, I wouldn't have followed Rawat, but since I was conned, I try not to judge myself too harshly. Brainwashing is a pretty strong chain. Now is the time to start thinking and feeling for yourself, and learning about Zak's likes and dislikes.
Try to be nice to you -- Rawat wasn't, so you need to be!
Welcome to the cyber world of people who were conned but who also escaped and moved on to a better way of living. Enjoy your freedom!
