This morning as I was preparing to 'face the world' I was impressed with a thought as I was brushing my teeth:

"This could be the last time you touch this toothbrush in this room in this home."

I went "yeah", then it sank in.

Who thinks about death when they wake up on a beautiful day like today?

Not too many people...maybe morticians and life insurance salesmen...

But as it sank in, every single thing I touched,every single thing I did, every single peron I interacted with, I realized that could be the last time I do that or touch that or interact with.

Why am I sharing this with you all here?  This experience has put me closer to what I used to call 'Holy Name' and a deep sense of vivid appreciation for life and everything in it that I have been blessed with.  And I need that and I have missed that and it came to me in this experience this morning and I wanted to share it with others who sought that experience too.

And why am I risking being late for work to share this with you all here?  Perhaps it is because you are all greater than you could ever imagine and the work done here is sacred, because the truth is being preserved, the chronicles and archives of what really happened to us in our lives while under the influence of Prem Rawat.  We are preserving the truth of what really happened which explains why we are where we are now, doing what we are doing.  If that memory were erased, then we would look like they want us to look.  And that is not going to happen.

I saw Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind with Jim Carrey.  It's a love story that transcends mind control and even memory erasure.  I recommend it.       

San