There comes a point where the denial becomes so outrageous.  It really is like standing in front of a black wall with someone and having them call it white.  What's left to be said?

You lost, POV, and, most importantly, you know it.  I can't imagine what's going on in your head right now but I just have to believe that somewhere, hopefully, somewhere prominent in your consciousness, you can see how trapped you are.

Best of luck,

Jim