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Anyway, at this one program I remember, this demeaning and sarcastic prem-pal was in his element(and Hilltop if you are reading this - feel free to help out with any verbatim quotes). After roughing us up during his discourse (discharge?)with some heavy surrender/devotion crapola he offers us the soothing balm of "returning home to our rat-holes" like the poor, confused pack of rodents we were in his enlightened eyes.
Yeah, I remember that, the rat hole comment and how Rawat would scream and yell and tell us what worthless, ungrateful scum we were, and then lighten up, and we would feel oh, so grateful, that the displeased parent once again accepted us, and would not abandon us. This is a common manipulative technique by cult leaders, kidnappers, CIA interrogators and prison guards, not to mention abusive husbands towards their abused wives. Rawat did it all the time, and I'm sure he still does. It's how he controls people, or at least one of the ways. It's really sick. And I have heard that he does it all the time in interpersonal relationships among the people he hires, like his servants, the skipper of his yacht, etc. He abuses them and then lets up and is nice. The self-esteem-destroyed premie is just so fucking grateful and is full of "that gratitude."
What amazes me, is that current premies have completely repressed all that, even the really explicit stuff from those days, like the "rat hole" satsang you mentioned and have convinced themselves it never happened.
I think for many ex-premies, once they get away from that destructive relationship with Malibu Prem, there is a certain degree of anger and resentment towards him at how he manipulated us in that way.
Modified by Joe at Thu, Oct 27, 2005, 13:27:07
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