John, you have an excellent memory for all the details. I was in such a weird head space at that time that it's quite hard to piece the chronology or even the facts together entirely accurately.

Less than a year before Guru Puja in Copenhagen I still had my identity . The one I grew up with which had gradually evolved and changed in a natural way, with the times.I hadn't had an easy life but I had kept apace and retained my curiosity,energy, integrity ,personality as well as all the attributes that were uniquely part of "me". I had my problems but I knew who I was.

Then I met a much older premie ( manipulative and persuasive), attended "satsang" at the Palace of Peace and started to believe Rawat's lie that I didn't know who I was because I wasn't who I was.It's a very dangerous thing to strip away a teenager's roots,direction and sense of self. Reluctantly and afraid, I gave up my place at University in order to serve the lord.I left my friends behind, my family behind and had handed all my wordly goods to Divine Sales.The clothes I wore in Copenhagen were mostly borrowed from other Ashram premies and I didn't even look like myself.

I was a strange, bedraggled young woman conscientiously "guarding" the food tent....and utterly confused.That was the thing about the whole Divine Light ,Maharaj Ji thing in those days ; it made me confused, and then Maharaj Ji would tell us off for being confused.

Well,actually it never stopped making me confused....right up to the day I first read Ex Premie Org. 

It's very possible that we met there at the Guru Puja campsite ,John.