Jonx, listen, i feel sorry for you too.

it is really difficult to keep your focus solely on beauty and grace, and your devotion to Maharaji. well done for your devotion and love.

I too had incredible experiences with meditation.

i still do have incredible experiences of beauty and grace.

songster, you expressed it so well. please jonx, open your heart and recognise the truth of what songster writes.

The truth shall set you free.

It is true that we have anger and wounds to heal. That is only natural when one feels betrayed. but also there is an incredible freedom. the release from beliefs no longer needed.

love