....did you ever explain your pov to your fellow premies at the time, by giving satsang about it in a room full of your peers?
It was not a popular viewpoint among the corporate types but they were a minority.
So you didn't actually get up & say ..........''you know, like, it's just so fantastic this Holy Name & I really, really, realised that yesterday when I smoked some really, really, good red leb & it just increased my understanding sooooooooo much & when I just had to go and get myself a big Mac half an hour later, I just realised that the most amazing thing about Guru Maharaji Ji is the fact that he talks a load of bollocks but he's still god, & all you people who're trying to not to fart too loudly after eating your lentil burgers are in your minds because he doesn't really know what he's talking about in that area, though of course he's really, really, perfect & sooooooooo beautiful that he gave us His Holy Name, & sometimes I feel it sooooooooo strongly, especially after smoking dope which as you know is another gift from God put here to help us attain enlightenment, & GMJ not being a doper himself of course, is talking through his arse when he says he doesn't want premies to do that, but it doen't matter because the Tao, which goes all the way back beyond Jesus Christ is in everything & nothing at the same time.......etc etc etc.''
Mind you I don't blame you for not doing that, but really, it's a bit of a stretch for you to claim that your take was mainstream. This of course is what the Rawat revisionists would like the world to believe too.