Well I'm 55 now but at the time of joining it seemed to me that I might be a little older than the median but nothing too different.I was definitely trying to follow the agya. The agya was satsang, service and meditation and darshan though I confess I wasn't overly fussed about the darshan. Never delay in attending satsang, constantly meditate and remember Holy Name and whatever else those commandments were. Now a family man with two young children can hardly go to satsang every night (though in my later years I broke even that commonsense rule) but the agya had to be flexible enough on the details to suit all people after all. I was strong and smart enough not to try to believe things I found unbelieveable or trite and stupid, didn't you?
One of the main reasons I joined DLM was because it was definitely being promoted as try now, believe later. Sure I wasn't smart enough to understand the catch in that offer, that just trying is enough to make humans believe. It wasn't about dogma it was about experience. If your experience as a premie was miserable you should have left because that wasn't the promise that was made about K. I still love the song and I still play if reasonably often but if you think the "Word of the Master" meant only the printed words of Prem Rawat then you are even more literal minded than I am and was and I wasn't pretending to myself at tthe time that to me the young Rawat was the Master, I presumed the song was referring to God and Rawat's relationship to That was an open question.
While I had little formal Christian religion I had been infatuated with the idea of "enlightenment" for nearly a decade before I came into contact with premies (premies not Rawat) and naturally I brought along that mindset to DLM. Was I a premie as compared to you? Who knows but I sure as hell sat in the front row of satsang whenever I could with mine eye being single and my whole body full of light and rose at 5 to meditate. I wasn't worrying about who was a premie and who wasn't, I was too busy enjoying the possibility whichever way it turned out. As it turned out we both came to the same correct decision by our separate life experiences so stop trying to negate mine because it is different to yours. You're not the judge of who was a premie and you're not the judge of who is an ex-premie for that matter.
