Hi Hamzen!  Great topic!  This is "the baited hook" of course, that we need to "stay in touch".  I used to feel that it was because premies and master alike wanted to be together, to see each other!  I wanted to feel that there was some sort of divinity in human form that I could at least approach now and then, even if across a stadium or an auditorium full of people!  The suggestion of a great love, the feeling of a great love, a dinine love, beyond all our "ordinary loves" was SO appealing to me then.  But illusion is illusion, and he certainly is a great illusionist if nothing else.  And I was ripe material for the game, evidently.  In actual fact, he never once looked into my eyes.  He never once said my name.  He never knew who I was!  I had to make it all up for myself, how much he "loved" me.

I remember a time, when I was about eight years old. I was lying in a hospital bed and noticing the leaf-shadows on the opposite wall.  What intrigued me beyond words was that the light often appeared in perfect circles!  I was in total awe.  This was thirty years before I ever heard of enlightenment, gurus, easten mysticism, or anything like that.  I already didn't need them!  But I lost that wonder, and the trust in myself that already knew what 'sacred" is.

Nice to recover that!  Stay in touch with yourself, I say!

~shelagh