Nya, the steps how we allowed the abuse to ocurred was so subtle.  We thought he was helping us destroy our egos, which he convinced us, was a good thing because it separate us from "Our Guru M", GOD.

I don't think I allowed him to abused me.  It happened only because I was brainwashed to believe he knew my needs better than I did that I made an effort to really listen how bad I was.

Being "GOD" on Earth gave him the authority to abuse us mentally. 

If I knew he was really abusing me in so many levels as he did I would have never stayed. He did not have my permission to abused me but to love me and teach me. 

How can I blame myself for being abused? Same thing with rape victims. 

He is the TOTAL loser.... how much he has to ingest to be able to sleep I can only imagine. No pitty for the devil, none.

Let me throw some roses your way:  You are lovely person too!