I wasn't shocked at all by the lies. I took that version of history as a light and humorous way of recalling all this.

At that time, I only knew one side of the story, and had no idea of what was going on on Rawat's side. I would always blame the premies for what was wrong. I sincerely thought that the 'new way' of presenting K was a good thing - even though I had the feeling it didn't make much sense, and that there was a problem in hiding the devotional side of our relationship with the 'master'.

In brief, I was not very comfortable with it, but I would accept it with enthusiasm - I had no other choice.