...Found the exact part of Baba's post that made my brain/emotions turn to mush so that I was unable to write a coherent reply.( I agree with you that Baba is an OK guy with the best intentions).

Here's that ( for me  )   mush making bit again and your brilliant understanding of what I was unable to express.....Thanks !

And try not to turn this forum into an "all about me and my feelings" kind of place because that (and I am not speaking for the Management here) is not what it's about.  Us old timers have seen that again and again.  And sometimes of us even play that game and I probably include myself in that list.  But, I believe that these forums are for sharing information about being in Maharaji's cult and by providing that real person-to-person information and interaction people can begin to understand that they were in a cult and they can, perhaps, take the first steps in getting out.

I believe that in making this forum a personal thing where you feel offended and hurt because someone, typically a seasoned old-timer, is skeptical about some new poster that you are playing into the enemies hands where they want to divide us and pit each other against ourselves.  And that certainly has been a tactic of the premies.  Don't think they don't know about psychological warfare and all that good stuff.  I'm sure that NAR could explain the art of war much better than I can.

My reaction to the last part of your post, dissing those who speak about their feelings, distinguishing the "seasoned old-timers" vs the rest of us who are new posters who "come and go," stating what you think is the purpose of this forum, etc., was that all of a sudden I felt like I was not welcome as a unique human being to express myself as I felt and thought at any particular moment. That this was a forum of "good old boys" who were warriors in the cause and if I didn't speak the party line or language, I was helping the 'enemy' and wasn't welcome. Babalouji, I am sure you did not mean to come across like that, knowing that you have a big heart and are a great person. But can you see how, in reading that, new posters would feel unwelcome and a bit timid to express their true thoughts and feelings here. And so I ask of you and everyone. Just what is the purpose of this forum? Then I can make an informed decision as to whether I want to be here.