It's just the way it is.
I'm not convinced that 'Sam' is genuine either, because these posters who fit the way the cult would like itself to be presently seen, have an uncanny knack of popping up every time Rawat's name gets anywhere near the public.
On the other hand if he is who he says, then as far as I'm concerned he's more than welcome to defend his pov here.
I think you need to appreciate that this forum is, unfortunately maybe, not simply a place where past & current followers of GMJ can swap life stories & amusing anecdotes, but is a kind of battleground between the truth & lies.
I don't mean that metaphorically either.
I love your posts btw.